Soledad's Fight for Recovery

Hello Everyone! I have been the slackety slackest poster ever! But I am going to try to get back on track. Here is the thing.....I had a couple of bad bad bad days. I think it was the stress of applications, and my job.....but I managed to get myself straightened around and have put in a solid three days of good eating and not purging so I think things are on the up swing. During the days I was purging my whole life just went grey and bleak and BLECH! I didn't want to have sex, didn't want to go out, didn't want to excercise or do anything but binge and purge and binge and purge...thank god Greg is around or I might have simply succumbed to those urges. After two days with purging my body felt like SHIT. I was bloated and irritable and depressed and paraniod and cranky as FUCK! Only now am I starting to feel more like myself. On a postive note I had a pizza victory the other night! Ate pizza with Greg no purging! YEAH!!!!! Also I am still running regularly....about 30-35kms a week! So that helps me with the purging. You can't run if you are purging a lot. and finally all my applications are in the mail! Will it be Dr. Soledad or Soledad- the perpetual MA??? Keep your fingers crossed!