Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckbitchfuclshitmotherfuckerassholefuckshitchingatumadrependejoputamadre!!! I am feeling really really angry! ANGRY! and sad. and disappointed and aggitated. I feel like I could rip my body apart and I would just feel all this anger in the little jagged, scattered pieces of my body. I hate my body! I hate it. It is a prison. I don't even mean my weight. I could give a fuck about ym weight. I mean my body...my brain, how I am feeling, what I am thinking. I am sinking in this mire of anger and self doubt and self hatered and self loathing. Where did this come from. It is like there is this tiny explosive kernal inside me....full of anger and hatred and every now and then it just EXPLODES!!!! leaving me full of these emotions. Emotions that used to make me try to tear myself apart from the inside out, but that now just make me feel.....furious! FUrious that I have to be this way. That I can't just be me! Can't just accecpt myself! and the wonderful things in my life!! RANT RANT RANT FUCK!
We were biking....hence the helmet
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Good for you, Sole, let it out! Find something safe and private that you can do to really let your body shake out all this rage!
(And then tell us how great it was :) )
love,
ae