All of my PhD applications are done. I have letters of recommendation, I have applied for scholarships, I have written research proposals, I ahve polished my CV and I have found supervisors. There is just ONE THING LEFT TO DO.......the written submisson. I have to send in an ESSAY of mine.......gulp....and they ALL SUCK! I am dead serious. They are BELOW PAR! THEY ARE AWFUL and everytime I go to polish one up I balk....I freeze, my brain turns to jello.....to mush to nothing..........................................................................................................................I am the crappiest writer ever. No school will take me. Shoot me now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!FUCK JESUS DAMN FUCK MIESTER FUCK! I am going a little nutty.
We were biking....hence the helmet
Deep breaths . . . this sounds like a self-confidence crisis to me. I wish you could see what I see! An amazing, brilliant, beautiful, strong, supportive, fantastic young woman. Trust me on this! I have complete and utter faith in you and your abilities.
xoxo
Sarah
You CAN do this. I don't believe you can't write; that's certainly not the sense I get from your blog.
Get to it. Grit your teeth, deep breath, say 'stop it, stop it, I know I can do it, stop the bullshit, I know I can do it!' LOL or something less dorky.
It's absolutely do-able. Go girl!
xx
love, Z