Soledad's Fight for Recovery

ok so in my last post I accidentally wrote that our wedding date is may 29, 2008...it is acutally 2009! Sorry. And thanks to Sarah for making me realize it! God in a month would be terrifying. I have nothing done. Went shopping with my mom yesterday. It was not good. WARNING NUMBERS! I am a size 6-8. Depending on the store. I figure since I am so short, this is acutally quite fat. My mom is the same size )almost) as me and considers herself fat......so you see shopping is sometimes good and sometimes bad, depending on how we are both feeling about our bodies. Yesterday, was a BAD body day for me. And as I write this I realize how awful it must be for my mother to hear me say I am fat when we are the same size. I don't think she is fat, I think she is tiny.........weird. ANYWAYS I was trying on this skirt, and I asked my mom if it made me look fat and she said " I don't think so". Well that was not the answer I wanted............it went downhill. I immediately stopped wanting to shop. I was sitting in the dressing room trying not to cry, wishing I could rip the disgusting fat from my body. I pulled myself together and decided that I needed to stop shopping. We went and got coffee and went for a walk instead. I am proud I could say I needed to stop, But I am ashamed that I think I am fat. I acutally don't think I am fat, I think I am average. Which is WAY WORSE.