So pardon the major delay in posting, things have been busy around here. I have been having a really hard time not binging since I heard back from PhD. I feel like shit. Like I am not good enough, like I am wasting my time. You see I have NO idea what I really want to do now. I could go to Toronto and get a job (believe me I am looking). I could go for the summer and the get a job back here in the fall and wait until Greg is done with school. OR I could just crawl in a hole. I like number three! I am 24 and I feel like my life is flying. Like my youth is running away from me. Now I will be 26 if I got back to school!!! Wasn't I supposed to be done by now????FUCK! Or I could pursue a career? But in what? Governmental???/ NO FRICKIN WAY! I am much to disheartened for that. I feel lost. ON a WONDERFUL note Greg and I set a date! May 29th, 2009! His graduation is on the 28th! It's gonna be a good w/e!!!
We were biking....hence the helmet
Things will work out I feel it. Babe I am 30 and now in May going back to school to finish a few classes to only get on a waiting list for nursing school. It may be a bit late but I honestly believe it is never to late when it comes to school! I am so effing proud of you for all you have done and all you will do!!
Congrats on setting a date sweetie, May 29th sounds like a wonderful day!
love to you
I am just getting caught up on your blog. Sorry to hear about not getting into grad school. I loved Lauren's comment on that post and her (and a few other bloggers') reminder that there's gotta be a good reason why things aren't unfolding as you had originally hoped or envisioned. There's something else waiting for you for the year ahead, and, whatever it may be, I'm sure there will be experiences in that year which, in retrospect, you wouldn't want to have missed!
thinking of you, sweet Sole!
with love,
~ej