Soledad's Fight for Recovery

So things are very up and down right now. I am working at the restaurant still as well as doing some ESL supply work which I am pretty sure will lead to permanant work. But I am crying a lot. Crying cause I don't really want to work in a restaurant and because Greg works all day and I work at night. It totally sucks. I miss him and it makes me worry about next year. I don't really want to be apart, I get sad when we are apart and I feel like a wimp. I feel like I should be able to be apart, but I get sad and insecure and I HATE HATE HATE that feeling. GAH. Why would I subject myself to that? I CAN go home for the year, but......fuck I don't know. On another note I am very upset about a friend of mine. We are both very busy and I feel that she isn't being as supportive of me as she could be. I am stressed and upset and freaked out about work (or the lack of it) and I feel like I annoy her........gah! I always drop things to talk to her and make allowances for her, but I do not feel she does the same for me. FUCK I am going to the gym