Warning this may be a bit XXX for some of you. Fiesty in particular I know how sensitive you are to this kinda shit so you might wanna not read it (hahhahah can you sense the sarcasm in that one)! ANYWAYS in all seriousness for a group of women we RARELY talk about sex. It is like eating this., fat that, jiggle this, wobble that, threw up this, ran off that.....NO WONDER WE NEVER TALK ABOTU FUN STUFF LIKE DOING IT! Ok I am kidding, but if we can't make fun of ourselves....we might as well wave the white flag of surrender to Mia and Ana now! ( please I am not making light of the experiences that some of us have had with assault. If you want me to change this please let me know). My sex drive has been 0....no wait, make that like negative 5 and I am sorry h4h but I am not dressing up like a horny rabbit everynight with lube in one hand and a beer in the other just cause mr. greg put a big sparkely on my finger. hahahahah ANYWAYS. It has been a little.........dry lately....like assume the position......I described it to gilly as "masturbating in the same room"....gets the job done but really....... nothing I couldn't have done to myself! and this has been mostly me stressing about my body and my weight and my purging and work and PhD and self-loathing and depression.....NOT SEXY...SO!! I decided we needed some ZEST! I had this whole big night planned out with an...ahem....outfit and wine . I got home and Greg had cleaned the whole apt. but flowers everywhere and laid out crackers and cheese. He jumped on me, we took of all our clothes and spent like an hour drinking wine and fooling around. I didn't freak about my body! I kinda forgot about what my body looked like it was all about feeling and it was AWESOME. Fat is not a feeling but sexy motherfucking is. My body was doing things it forgot about and I was amazed at what it could do. Very self affirming. my point= ed kills sex. we deserve to have regular sexual fun....our bodies can do many things that we don't allow it to. Everyone has boundaries, but within those boundaries it is ok to have some safe sexual fun! Even if you are single wink wink! rejoice in the body you got.
We were biking....hence the helmet
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So real quick I failed,,,,knew I would and just did not care....on to bigger and better now!
I so have experienced the same excitement and want with M it is crazy how being alone in our ed's can make us so NOT HORNEY! I hated that but god sometimes it just feels good to be alive!!! Hey ff if you read this I so DID say the H word haha!
Sole I'm so happy you got to have some good ol'e sexual excitment with being able to enjoy your bod again and I love that you stepped out and did this post!!!
Love you
Lauren
Seriously...hot damn. Finally, someone brings it up. (Yes, I said that.)
For me, sexual desires are one of the first things to go in regards to anorexia. And usually it's one of the last things to return.
And yes, I'm still waiting for mine to return. Waiting. And waiting. And waiting.