Hey....I can't really think of a title for this blog.....but here is what is going on in my life. My PhD applications are done. I have all of my letters of recommendation for my first deadline...except one. From my thesis advisor.......usually she is really quick about this stuff....but she is totally dragging her heels and it is stressing me out. She isn't really responding to my emails etc. But she said she would write one for me...I need it really really soon. Like in the next three weeks soon..... What am I going to do? Is it me? She said she would it!!!! I am freaking freaking freaking out!!!!!!!!!!! I could cry...is it me? SOB! I need that letter. What if she doesn't do it and I don't get in because my application is incomplete. They won't even process it without her letter AND worse she teaches at one of the schools I am applying to. This is awful. In order to even apply to PhD I had to STARE down all of my insecurities..........over come them, hand over a WRITING SAMPLE for Christ Sakes.....Greg is even moving to Toronto for me.....and she can't write this god damned fucking letter. JESUS! FUCK GOD DAMN IT FUCK DAMN FUCK! (sorry)
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But three weeks is actually a long time. . . I know it doesn't feel that way, but try not to panic yet. Maybe you could speak to her in person?
Ugh! I know you'll be so glad when this is over. . .
xoxo
I just want to say that I doubt ((I KNOW!) it's not you. It's a horrible time of year for advisors and professors (I'm a college professor), and she will get to it. Keep on emailing her.. as she is human and may forget! Know that it's not you, though, Sol. I promise. I have forgotten my most adored students before now, and it's always always to do with ME.
Congrats on getting it all done.
Love Z
Thinking of you