I am home. I am soooooo tired and I feel a little anti-climactic. We had a wonderful time and as far as purging went I did pretty good, but lemme tell you Toronto women are gorgeous and thin. I definatly felt pressure to lose weight while I was there. Like we are moving there so I need to lose some of my excess.........I am sitting with this right now.....not doing anything about it yet. But I want to start excersising like a mad woman and not really eating/purging. I KNOW this is ridiculous and a lot of it as to do with the fact that I am worried I am not good enough for a PhD and therefore I feel fat and ugly. I will keep you all updated on how this goes.
We are very very happy with how all this went. We are moving to Toronto, I just have to make sure that I get into programme for 2008-2009 or I will be hanging around my hometown until Greg is done Law School.......
STRESS!!!!
Here are some pics!!
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glad you made it home safe. I don't know if this clicks for you at all, but sometimes when I get home from trips (esp. ones with an expectation of moving/changing/applying/etc), I get really down on myself.
Post-trip stress and all that ;)
take care love.
ae
love,
lulu
I am so happy you had such a great time, and DAMMIT you WILL get into a program and you ARE worth it sweetie!!!!
So much love to you today and welcome back, just wish you were closer to me!!!!
xoxo Lauren
Please remember that "thin" and "beautiful" are not synonymous, and that those gorgeous Canadians likely struggle with many of the same issues you -- we -- do.
You will have greater success and a more positive life experience if you continue to take care of yourself; PhD eligibility is not measured by our waist size, but by what we have to offer the program. It's clear that you have a ton to offer the program, so walk confidently!
You're good enough already, I promise you.
Love, Z
love,
ae
WELCOME HOME!
Loving the pics!
I promise promise promise. PLUS us country girls have the advantage of growing up in a pollution free environment, making us seem less haggard and drained all the time. AND we don't smoke, unlike the rest of the city. AND we aren't materialistic, superficial ginas.....who like to hang around the Bay St. bars to meet a bay St. boy...and who you are probably referring to.
Love you lots,
Frida
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
How exciting that you'll be moving!
hugs,
~ej