So things that are going badly here. I still don't have a full time job and I apply for at least one every day. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. I SUCK. I guess things have just gone so well for me in the past I expected the same here. I am a moron. I am quiting my waitressing job, so I can do more supply teaching. I have some contacts and I am working hard to network. I am going to an AGM tonight for a women's group and I am doing volunteer work and I know I know I know it takes time, but it is sooooo hard. I mean I got an A+ on my MA thesis, I didn't get into a pHD programme and I can't get a job, what the hell is wrong with me? Have people been lying to me my whole life about being capable? Do I think too much of myself and I am just getting what I deserve? WHAT?????? I literally do this each day, get up, apply for a couple of jobs, cry, go to the gym, clean my house, go to work. Sometimes I b/p mostly I cry. I think I might go wedding dress shopping today for fun, or maybe tomorrow. Why why why why why.................... Serisouly this morning I woke up and Greg was leaving for work and I KNEW I had nothing to do till 6pm and that I had to apply for jobs and UGH. I was depressed. I keep venting. I am sorry. I need to get this out of me.
We were biking....hence the helmet
It will get better. Give it time and don't stop believing, hun.
On another note, I have to go up to Vancouver soon. Would you ever considering flying out for a few days??? Or maybe I can come your way - I've actually always wanted to take the train there!