Soledad's Fight for Recovery

I have everything I want and yet I am still bulimic. Why? Is it out of habit? SOme I think. Is it out of being terrified of losing all this.....mostly. I feel like bulimia is making one final last ditch effort to hold onto me. She can see I am leaving her behind and is dragging her heels, gnashing her teeth and sinking her nails in so as not to be left behind. And for the last week or so she has been successful. My parents visited me back to back which was sooooooooooooooo stressful. They really really really stress me out. I did, however, get a full time summer job that I start tomorrow. I will be working for a rent geared to income community, doing research about hygene and landlord/tenant relationships. I am pretty excited honestly. I need the $$ since I am going back to school in the fall. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Here are some pics of me at the University. My mom and I went to check it out! This whole PhD thing has got my head spinning. I want to do it, I am excited to do it, but I am scared I will suck at it , get kicked out and have to work at McDonalds in New Brunswick for the rest of my life (ok not really but you get my drift). I have been so distant from the blog community because I do not want to be held accountable for my actions of late. LAME I know. On another note I GOT a wedding dress. If you wanna see a pic email me.