Soledad's Fight for Recovery

Today is my b-day! I am 25!!! 25!!!!!!!!! holy shit. Good news is no purging on my b-day.....at least not yet and I have had a cupcake. Bad news is I have been bulimic for like 100 years. one day at a time I guess. The reason I need a roomie is not cause something happened with Greg, but because Greg (and our current roommate) has to go back to school in the fall for 8 months and we want to keep our sweet 2 bedroom apt, but it is too expensive for just me. Work is going well. I still really like it, things with Greg have improved. I was on a roller coaster from May-July really. Movie, finding work, getting rejected from PhD, getting accepted to PhD, finding a roommate and dealing with the fact that Greg and I are going to be doing long distance and this ALL happened in like 6 weeks. STRESS!!!! It totally took a toll on our relationship. I feel really guilty for having put him through that though and I am totally not past that guilt yet. I feel like a damaged us, but he said he is not mad at me nor is he going anywhere so I guess I should just chill out. It is my anxiety that bothers him the most......fuck! I am so anxious. any suggestions?????