Soledad's Fight for Recovery

Stress! Fuck I hate it and yet it is always around! yesterday was quite literally one of the most stressful days of my life. The following things happened yesterday: 1) We found an apt. in Toronto and have filled out all the paper work and are now waiting to hear back from the rental company as to whether or not we are approved tenants. This consists of a credit check and references checks. (please understand that in hick ville NB this is NOT how we do things). Anyways because we are students with student debt and post-grad salaries we put my Dad as our guarantor (as a way to basically ensure we get the place). NOW I am waiting to hear back and this is totally stressful for me because honestly, it is like someone is evaluating me and saying if I am good enough or not. FUCK! 2) I found a subleter for our apt. for the summer. Which in itself is not stressful NOW, but the process was, Call landlord, get permission to sublet, post ad, clean apt. SHOW apt, decide on someone. Honestly the woman we got is great! and I know her sister so I feel pretty comfortable, but STILL! GAH! 3) I had my first physio session yesterday and it was very positive. Turns out I have flat feet and therefore, my knee and femur to not meet correctly- hence the pain while running. Easy to fix, but expensive. I have to find out if my insurance company will cover the physio and orthotics. GAH! Also doing all these exercises in front of mirrors with the physio therapist watching (he is also a personal trainer) is VERY stressful for me. I am like, I am soooo pudgy, and he is sooo judging me! GAH. The good news is I will live to run another day! 4) STILL NO WORD FROM PHD. 5) Also I worked all day AND made it to the gym. I ate TONS of ice cream last night! BIG SURPRISE.