Soledad's Fight for Recovery

So........the stress is really getting to me....in that I am Purgy Mcpurgepurge! Problem is when I b/p I actually GAIN weight! So I feel like shit. I haven't gained yet, but if I keep going this way I will AND it is bad for me AND I feel like SHITE when I do it. You would think that would be enough incentive to stop but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Self destruction is tooooo much fun (note sarcasm). Anyways the reason I am stressed is Apt. and Phd (read previous post). No b/ping yet today so......let's hope I can keep it this way. In an effort to realize this I am distracting myself by picking out wedding dresses online. I found 4 more I really like. Opinions welcome!!!! In fact opinions appreciated.