Soledad's Fight for Recovery

So I have been having a hard time posting lately. I start and then I stop and get to tired to finish. It's like I just don't care and when I think about the week I have had it makes sense. Because of my injury I have not been running and that TOTALLY stresses me out cause I think I will get super fat, also I had the busiest week ever and did not make it to the gym as much as I usually do. Also I ate really badly, lots of crap!!! And yesterday I purged WAY more than I usually do. IT was totally from the stress of thinking that I embarassed myself on Friday night. I got VERY VERY drunk, I NEVER get THAT drunk and I ran around like a moron talking to everyone, dancing like a fool and there are things I did that I didn't even remember. Of course having as many secrets as I do (bulimia, anxiety about everything etc etc) I got really worried I had shared my deepest, darkest secrets with everyone and this led to QUITE the b/p yesterday. It is sooo not like me I am usually a very gracious person to party with, but I have been soooooo stressed and I felt like I needed to blow off steam and I think I was a totally messy drunk.... So now my face is puffy, my eyes are stinging and my stomach is empty. But I THINK I am back on track. Saturday I was totally hungover so there was NO b/ping, but yesterday afternnon....what a disaster. Anyways I am feelign better now! So far today I have had an apple, a banana and a coffee. I plan on having soup and salad for lunch and going to the gym after work as well as to the V@gin@ Monologues tonight at the local University. I had been doing so well, FUCK! On a totally different note....Has anyone heard from Beth lately? She hasn't posted in ages and I am a little concerned.